Back to work!!!

Finally i am back to working class after resting for a year. I am now attached to Hong Leong Bank Berhad as a contract staff for 2 years. My job scope is basically doing sales of bank products - mortgages, hire purchase, credit cards, assurance, insurance, unit trust!! Wish me heaps of lucks to hit the minimum target as the target is seemed to be unachievable. Hahahaa...

Suk Ching's wedding dinner

Suk Ching, my classmate back in secondary school, MGSS has tie a knot finally to Chin Tiong. The night really joyful cos some of them never been seen since we left school, we talked, we laughed, we joked...

Job hunting

I was looking for jobs since a month ago, trying to look for bank line or telecommunication services. After sent out my resume to Hong Leong Bank, Public Bank, AM Bank, RHB and Maxis, i only received 2 calls which were Hong Leong and Public Bank. I went to both interview, Hong Leong Bank interview was held in Kuantan and Public Bank interivew was in KL. Both jobs is doing selling bank products, sales in another word.

In the Hong Leong's interview, i was quite "clicked" with the interviewer(the branch manager), she even on the spot confirm her interest to hire me, just me that so jual mahal told her that i still have another interview in KL, i need to re-confirm her. The next week, i went to KL for Public Bank interview, in the interview i dont feel comfortable at all with the interviewers, i even wanted to walked out from the room cos it was just too bored,( fyi, i am so hyperactive and talkactive, suddenly i need to be so serious n silent), they make me felt that they more like a judge than interviewers. I just simply answer them questions and when they told me that my salary is fixed which means no commissions when i close a deal, i was like what the f***, i shall just walk out just now, the whole interview session, i was so tensed!! After the interview, in order to make myself relax, i walked to the opposite tower - KLCC for shopping, and bought a lot of MNG clothes cos it was on great sales.

After the interviews, I really sat down to think of my future. Should I work?? Or continuing being a fulltime mummy. I was thinking, if i go to work, meaning i gotta send Chloe to a nanny, in my mind, i dont think anyone else will take greater care than me lor but, if i continuing staying home, meaning i don't utilised what i have learnt and why did i holding a degree cert while i know from the very beginning i will be a homemaker?? I was quite confused, I told myself i need to be myself again, i cannot be a homemaker while i am so young. So my decision is, call back Hong Leong Bank to confirm that I'm wanting to join in.

After 2 weeks, i received a call from the HQ telling me that my commencement date is to be 22nd Jan, which is next monday, I immediately refused to say okie cos I have yet to get a nanny for Chloe. I told the girl that I will recall her by tomorrow to confirm my commencement date. After hung up the phone, i quickily start up my nanny search job, it was not easy to get a good nanny i know. Sigh...After getting a few nanny list, i went to ask around and finally i decided to send Chloe to an Indian lady because at least the place is clean and she talks English, most importantly, it is just nearby my housing area, i can just drop by her when i am on the way to work. The next afternoon, i call back and told her that i can start work after 29 Jan but she told me that Hong Leong doesnt hire people after 25th, so i gotta start on 5th of Feb(isnt better?? hahaha..) I will be a working lady again on 5th Feb!!!

08 Jan 2006, Monday

7 pm As usual, after fed Chloe with cereal, I went to kitchen to wash the cup n prepare water to clean her. When I was stepping out from toilet after preparing the water, i heard a little sound "doouuppp", in my mind, i was thinking whoa, what had just kicked down from the bed in the living hall by my little girl?? So energetic huh??!! Quickily did i run out to see what happened, the moment i saw my little girl was the one lying down on the floor, i knew that the "doouuppp" sound is made by her, she fell down from the bed, OH MY GOD!!! my heart stopped for a second, and immediately i carried her up n seeing her face turned "green" n i was so blank!!! She was like stopped breathing for a while, n when i carry her, she cried out, n me too, i cried like a mad cow..both of us non stop crying, i ran up to the room carrying Chloe to get my phone to call my hubby, cos he is at shop waiting for his staff to come over to work, hubby was so worried hearing our crying n yelling, he asked me to cool down, n tell him what has happened!! I told him the whole scenario with my crying voice. I guessed he was puzzled for a while too, and he said, he will call his staff to come over now, and he will come home once the staff come. After hung up the phone, i called my parents' house number, i couldn't talk anything, i was just crying, my mum n my sis were picking up the phone at the same time, they sensed something was really bad had just happened, they kept on asking why why why!!! what happened!! I just shout out, Chloe fell down!! After that, they thrown down the phone n the very next 2 mins i heard mum's car at my house already (so "effiecient" driver, [fyi, from my house to my parents' house need about 5 mins driving]). I quickily opened the door for them to come in, my mum cuddle Chloe n check which part of her body hurt, n found out that her right side head is reddish, guessed she must be really hurt and painful!! My mum used oil to soothe her but she still cry!! My heart is so broken, i kept on blaming myself why the hack that i put her on the bed while i know that she is so active, non stop turning here n there. I should be taking more precautions when letting her alone playing. After a while hubby came back from shop to see how is Chloe girl and we decided to send her to hospital if she vomits. Luckily she is alright n doesn't need to go to see doctor.
In my heart, I told myself this would be the first n the last time disaster.

December 2006 pitures

Now she is about 4 months old, at this month she starts putting everything in her mouth, grabs things, turning her body, talking (baby talk). Being a new mum, i would say all her "achievements" are so memorable. She is so adorable!!!

November 2006 Pictures for Chloe

November 06, Chloe is 2 months plus to 3 months old, in this month she starting to make funny faces whenever she sees camera. Guess she must be the next superstar!!!

October 2006 pictures

Hey hey!! It is pictures again, all are taken when she is one month plus to two months old...

Aug&Sept pics taking

After discharged from HTAA, i went home for my confinement month whereby the whole month I didnt steped out from house!!! Here are some of the pics when my confinement month and fullmoon feast... Enjoy viewing it!!!

Happy New Year 2007!!!

A new year, a new Beginning!!!
To all of you, wishing u all the best n may the lucky stars always strike on u. Good luck in everything u do. May God bless you. Cheers...

The Feeling of becoming a mom

Chloe, my first baby and I would say she is everything in my life and even more important than my own life. Having her of course is a joy, she is so pretty, so hyper, so cute, so lovely, so darling, so ...Whenever she smiles/laugh, she melts my heart. Whenever she make sound to talk to me, she make me feel that everything I've done is worthwhile. Whenever she poo, she will be extremly quiet and wait for me to clean up for me, she look so naive but right after i clean up, she will start kicking n moving her hands again, so naughty right. Whenever I look at her when she is soundly asleep, i feel so fulfillng having her in my life. In short, she is my motivator.


But, whenever comes to drink milk time, she always have problems on drinking milk which sometimes tear me off!!! She doesnt like to drink milk and only likes water, whenever she drink her milk, she must be in sleeping mode, yes, sleeping and drinking milk, n only drink milk in the car or in craddle. I guess this is the main reason how come i became so slim over a short time. Feeding milk to her isnt an easy job, always cry like people "dera" her.

See, she is my everthing, make me way of so happy n dragged me down when she cry.

My "date" with Yee Tyng(11/11/06)

Yee Tyng, a true friend who I met thru MSN introduced by another netfriend of mine who i never met before, Mei Yen!!! Mei Yen introduced me to Yee Tyng is because she was a pregger at that time who will be going to due around the same time with me. We started to chat when she came online on the same day i added her. We exchanged phone number to text each other, call each other. Unbelievable, both of us can be so "click" thru the air and we shared so many precious daily pregnancy diary together. From a stranger to a truly close friend, I really thanks her for being by my side when my ups and downs especially the moral supports given to me. Really help me to relax myself after talking to her.
I would say that this lady is super-duper "big head prawn", she gave me a "what-to-bring-to-hospital" list when i shall admitted to hospital for delivery, after a few days later, she text me and asked me to give her a list of what to bring to hospital, the minute i received the sms i thought she was testing me see whether did I pack those stuffs, mana tahu, she really forgotten jor!!! She herself gave me the list and she herself again who ask the list from me again. Oh yeah, even my bud-day she also mistaken the actual day, on the b'day eve around 11pm+ she sms me saying that "so sorry my dear friend that this b'day wish comes late cos i went to blablabla....",at that time i was laughing myself on the phone.
But this lady really "enough friend", whenever I got good news she wil be happy and sot sot with me for the rest of the day, and where there r my mood swing days n upset, she will be there to comfort me n advice me. Yes or no, Right or wrong, she always act like my elder sister to guide me.
Both of us are looking for a fine day to meet up n give each other a big hug. Thanks God that we have made it on 11/11/2006 Saturday. I went down to KL for my friend's engagement party n meeting up with this "air" lady. I carefully picked a set of clothes n get my hair a temp iron just to meet her, lolz. Like meeting first love, Yee Tyng text me the night before asking whether had I packed my stuffs to KL, and I was so hyper over that night. We planned for lunch@One Utama. When I reached One Utama, I immediately call her see where is she, she told me that she is in Vincci, old wing, my hubby dropped me at new wing so i told her that i will walk over to meet her at Vincci. When the minute i entered Vincci, I saw her at the back of the shop, so I quickly walk to her n wanna give her a hug, but this blur blur queen look at me like though i am a stranger cos she didnt wear her glasses. Hahahaa... We gave each other a big warm hug, a hug for every supports given to each other when we were preggers, a hug for becoming close friends, a hug for sharing each other's ups and downs, a hug for everything...
We went to had our lunch at Genki Sushi. At first, she said go to Shogun, a Japanese buffet but I told her that I can't eat much at one time, so we decided to go to Genki Sushi. After having lunch, we go for window shopping and this is the pic that we taken.

The Fullmoon Feast - 16.09.06 Saturday

Finally the confinement month passed, our fullmoon feast was earlied for 5 days, it was on 16/09/06. The confinement month is basicly for us (confinement lady) to rest as much as we can to restore energy. During the month, there are so many pantang larang whereby bath in herbal /ginger water,cannot wash hair for the entire month, eat ginger wine, have healthy meals, cannot get cold(so gotta wear long pants/sarong, socks and long sleeves at nights). The washing hair pantang, i wasn actually quite annoyed cos it messed up my life cos i feel like myself is so dirty and smelly as the dandruffs is like snowing, but luckily i bought the dry shampoo and i used it twice a week. Look at my pic here, my hair is so greasy.





Finally the month had passed, one day earlier i went to salon to thoroughly wash my hair, but both mothers adviced me not to wash for long as i still not "enough"day, scare i kena "wind". After washed hair, i went to anakku to buy baby car. So happy, like came out from jail.

The party was so great as so many ppl attended, mostly were relatives from hubby's side. Here r some of the pics on the night.


3 of us, me, Chloe and hubby




Mum with Chloe


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The bunch of friends



Long "Q" at the toilet




My girlfriends, me and Chloe

23.08.06 10:50 Wednesday

Right before i was giving birth.

I was admitted to hospital one day earlier than the operation date,this is to make sure everything goes smooth as doctors and nurses can monitor me from time to time. Every hour, they came and check my blood pressure, my hearbeats, my temperature as well as my baby's hearbeats. On the day i was admitted, i had this very down feeling which i dont know why i faced it. I was so sad on the day, i kept on crying for no reason til they thought i was suffering from the pain, my blood pressure went up once to over 190(which is extremely high) until the next morning. I started to fasting at 10pm, My operation time was supposed to start at 8am, i was dressed up and had those wire on my body on 6am ++, but postponed to 10am due to the high blood pressure. I told myself to calm down, i know everything will be fine cos it is a FIXED casearean section, so everything will be "OK" but it just couldnt help much of lowering my BP. The nurse gave me a drink which i dont know what medicine was that, then she inserted the "urine pipe" into my vaginal, it is supposed to be painful but i just felt nothing cos i was too scared. I was brought to the operation room, where my hubby cannot accompany me to goes in as they afraid the virus infection. In the operation room, i was told that they will inject two epidural from my spinal and i would feel numb, i thought this two injection will be extremely painful but again, i feel nothing, just like an ant biten me, cos i was too scared. (scared til no pain feeling, Geng!!!). The operation start after few minutes, i didnt really look at what was happening, i was there to pray to the God for everything goes smooth. Before i was entering the operation room, i thought operation room is where a place very serious, but i was wrong, they turned on the radio let me listen to music, talk to me, make me feel better at least i dont have much fear. After a while, the nurse told me that they are about to push the baby out from my stomach and i would feel like vomitting. The whole process basically is like ppl is making donuts with ur stomach is the flour. My baby is out at 1050am,after they "washed" my baby, a nurse brought me my baby, and it is a GIRL!! I was so touched when i see my own "creature" was in front of me, i kissed her and i nearly forget my operation is still on as they are cleaning my blood and to stitch me. At 1130am, i was towed to normal ward. I was told that my baby girl is 3.4kg, 50cm length and most importantly she is healthy!!

One of her very first pictures takings.

My wedding pics

Hehehehe...Suddenly think of uploading my wedding pics here and apparently saw this slide.com from Caroline page.

The first steak in my life!!!

Last weekend was my first time cooking at home after we get married, and it is also the first time i cook for him, the first time I step in to kitchen for this year,and also the first time I prepare steak!!! So many first time, and dont know my first time is a good start or a failure indeed. To be romantic enough, I decided to give him a surprise dinner - candle light dinner, lolz... So i need to plan this in "super" advance. Luckily enough, with the help of Yee Tyng, she helped me to find the easiest steak for beginner, Black Pepper Lamb Steak for darling, and Salmon for myself. Thursday afternoon i went to Giant to get the sauce, vegetables, canned Mushroom Soup. Friday's evening, i went to get Lamb Loin and Salmon, unfortunately, Salmon sold out, so gotta wait til the stock arrive on Saturday. But it is alright since i only need to marinate the Lamb Loin, so i went home to marinate it with Black Pepper sauce and black pepper. On the saturday, after I get the Salmon around 7pm, i quickily rushed back home to prepare the dinner, it took around 1 hour 30 mins for me to prepare this dinner, luckily it wasn't too long. :) I quickily went to shop and fetched darling cos he been calling me since 8pm, as usual, he will asked where should we go for dinner, and I answered him that i need to shower first cos I havent. Then he was nagging that, why so late havent shower lar, what i did lar, blah blah blah.... (He din know that this little devil prepared a lovely+romantic dinner). The moment he stepped in house, he smelt the Lamb smell, and the house is scented with Cranberry CandleLight. He is kinda surprised when he reached the kitchen, and he asked, where did i buy this dinner. (So the outlook of the steak is good i guess,heheee)

This is the lamb steak before spreading the black pepper sauce:



Here come with the Black Pepper sauce: (note: look at him, he can't wait for me to snap a pic first)



My Salmon steak:



After finished eating, i served ourselves a tiramisu ice cream for dessert and i asked for his feedback. And, this is his feedback on my steak: thumbs up!!! So happy and satisfying.

And i start loving cooking now. Hehehee...

'm so weird!!!

It seems like it has been a while that i didn't update my blog. It's not that i have nothing to update, but sometimes i just don't know how to put it in words. Should i say, i am hiding something?? Perhaps, hiding my inner feeling?? I am trying my very best to live happily, but do i really achieve it?? Have I let go the fears?? Have I found my self-confidence back?? I'm not sure how long this will be haunting me. Pls... OPPSsss... I dont wish to have pre or post natal blues!!! How can i make myself happy again just like last time??

Yippie Yippe!!! Happy Saturday!!! (08/07/06)

Yesterday the moment i stepped in my mum's house, i smelled something that i was waited for long- Durian Kampung!!! Though there are a lot of stalls along the roadside selling it, but darling doesnt let me to have one cos according to him, pregger shouldn't take "hot" food, some more Durian!!! Whenever i saw durian stalls at the road side, i just swallowed my saliva :( I was so happy when i see so many durians in mum's place, somemore most of them already opened and there is no one at the house beside two dogs were with me. I quickly washed my hands in the kitchen and run out to eat as much as i can. Without realising, i have finished 2 durians!! Feel so satisfied. Burp... After finished, mum and bro came back. I gave my mum a good reason why i ate up 2 durians, "mum, do u know if pregger dont eat the thing that she wanted to eat so much, when the baby comes out, the baby's saliva wil keep falling". Mum was puzzled n said, "how come i never come across of this saying before?? U must be trying to excuse urself for eating so much durian!!" Though i know mum doesnt sound so happy cos i eat so much of durian one shot, but looking at me (i was pretended as an innocent girl at that time), she asked, "do u want to take some home??" Of cos, i said, no, cos knowing that hubby sure will nag on me. When back home in evening, while i was talking to darling and suddenly i cant stop myself from burping, and immediately darling said, "dear, what did u eat?? It smelt like durian!! U must be eaten durian, told u how many times, u shld not have "hot" food, bla blah blah bla..." He keeps on nagging and nagging like a parrot. The minute he finished, i told him the same reason again that pregger shld eat what she wanted to so much, he believed it without doubting like mum, hahahhahaa...

After taking bath, darling suggested sushi for dinner (he must be regretted for nagging me for eating durian). So, we went to eat sushi for dinner. Felt so happy yesterday, eaten durian and sushi which are my favourite!!! Thks darling!! Muaksss...

简单还是复杂？？

一加一等於二
你会告诉我那很简单
但如果兩棵心碰在一起
事情就会变得很复杂

心结若无法打开
你会告诉我那很复杂
但如果能做到將心比心
事情也可以变得很简单

有些事情其实很简单
可是我们却常把它复杂化
有些事情其实很复杂
我们却天真地以為很简单

有心就會很简单？
无情变得很复杂？
亦或是
无心变得很简单？
有情就會很复杂？
我想这辈子我不会有答案

I'm Evil, How Evil Are You then??

Just went for the test and result shows that i am an evil!! Hahaha.. I suggest u guys go and have a try too. :)

MY RESULT:
***You Are 44% Evil***


You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.
Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.


How Evil Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/howevilareyouquiz/

2nd July 2006, Sunday

As usual, me and my hubby will go for Japanese restaurant for dinner on Sundays. The only different was we went to another Jap's restaurant on that night due to full house at the place we used to go(which is the same owner, sorry ler, Kuantan only have less than 5 Jap's restaurant). We went in to VIP room and ordered food. The menu is quite different from the one we used to go, the most important thing is they dont serve sushi!! Hubby keeps on complaining to me like a parrot cos he cant eat his favourite sushi. So we ordered oursleves a set of dinner sets, mix tempura, grilled shishamo and edamme (no sushi :( *sob sob* . While finishing the dinner, i heard a sound of "miaow miaow miaow..." from outside of the room, i wasnt aware of it cos i thought it maybe some music out there, but the sound is continuously, i started to be alert about it cos our room door is not closed, i am afraid that the cat will come in to our room. After a while, no more "miaow miaow" sound, i continued to enjoy my dinner, suddenly, the ",miaow miaow" sound was next to me!! OMG, it was a grey cat next to me!! I shouted and cant control my tears coming out (*NOTE: My hubby still happily sitting there enjoying his conversation on the phone and drinking green tea), the waiters and waitresses ran in to our room and take away the cat. After i get back to my normal mood, i start nagging my hubby for not keeping alert at all. And he still can laugh at me, saying that he should take down the video clip of mine when i saw the cat, my face,my emotion and my behaviour was just too funny for him. I was so angry at that time, he should have comforting me rather than laughing at my stupidiness!! What's more, i am a pregger!!! I cant get frighten often!! Hmmh... I told myself not to talk to him the entire night, pretending that i merajuk. Hubby sensed that i wasnt happy with it, he kept on making stupid faces for me to laugh. And finally, i gave in. We walked out from the restaurant by laughing of the cat's incident.

*Note: I dont know how the cat got in to the restaurant cos the door is sliding door. There are only 2 possibilities: the cat followed the customers come in or maybe the sliding door is not closed after someone came in or went out.